Someone once told me that there would be moments in this season of my life where I would really miss my life in Birmingham. Things, free-time, college life in general, and most importantly the people...my friends. And, I definitely had moments at the beginning...moments where I just really missed "my life". Then it got better as I engrossed myself in this new season. All the while, I was secretly suppressing all of the emotions I was truly feeling. And now, I fully understand what that person was trying to tell me...
I miss the genuine friendships that were cultivated over 4,3,2,1 year time... the people that know the real me...my girls.
I miss just going someplace completely random...even though I was so worn out at times, there was always someone pulling me out of the apt and getting everyone together for a night of randomness.
I never felt like my life was wasting away. There was always something that we did.
I miss that. I miss doing. I miss them.
I don't want to cry about it...it's not that I'm sad. I truly love where I'm at. However, I just miss my girl friends. It's funny because I feel like I haven't been able to really be myself sometimes because 1. it's not appropriate 2. no one will really get it 3. people are sometimes really boring.
I like to have fun. Whatever that may mean...I like to do stuff. Sure, there is also a time for "chilling". And, I am tired a lot bc of the full work day...but that isn't an excuse for not doing something.
Someone also once told me that it's just a part of "growing up"...becoming a woman. Different seasons...getting ready for LIFE. whew...that's scary.
Well, I'll take it. :)